Wow! This is my 100th post of the year, and let me just say it has been a long journey and I've learned a lot. Not only am I a year older, I've grown in maturity and interest, so I wanted to take a moment to reflect.
At the beginning of the year, I was a "follower". My personality went in waves. I was a normal, mainstream pre-teen girl, obsessed with Justin Bieber and friends.There wasn't anything and unique about me, everyday was the same routine.
Towards the middle of the year, I started feeling really overweight, and depressed. I started listening to crappy bands, who temporarily made me feel like I was important, but things didn't change. I wanted to dye all of my hair, and get piercings, and essentially become "scene". I wasn't happy about anything, and dreaded waking up every morning. My friends noticed changes and wouldn't leave me alone about what I thought I wanted, until I got too embarassed to talk about it.
Finally, summer came and I changed a lot. I started playing softball with an older team, and stopped listening to those crappy "emo" bands. I started losing weight, and feeling empowered by strong females. My taste started to develop towards things I genuinely liked, and wasn't afraid of sharing. I made new friends, and things were going well.
Now, I'm about 20lbs lighter, and approaching a new highschool life. I have started taking guitar lessons, working out, and focusing on my school work. I'm in the process of setting up for a YouTube channel, and coming to terms with my odd mood swings.
I've learned a lot, and definitely struggled down a dark path for a while. Years pass, and so do feelings. Know that if you give in tonight, you're giving up on me too. Feelings are temporary, life isn't. Stay strong, because things get better.
Looking forward to another great year,
Tara
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